Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Unbearable

Biscotti, my beautiful, sweet Maremma, was hit by a car this morning. She died instantly. 
I don't have language for this kind of pain.

124 comments:

viki said...

I am so sorry.

Anonymous said...

I am so, so, so sorry. I had to put my beloved dog Sam down a few years ago and it still hurts like crazy to think about it. I found solace in remembering the good times and funny stories with Sam and spending as much time as possible around the people I love. I wish you all the best.

Sarah said...

I am so so sorry for your loss. Biscotti was beautiful.

Katom Burke said...

oh Susie! I am so, so sorry to hear that. Losing a pet is terribly painful. Know that we are all thinking of you during this difficult time. HUGS!!!

Grace said...

I just lost my sweet and beautiful dog Temmoku a couple of weeks ago quite suddenly. I understand how no words can express the pain. I'm so sad for you loss. The good times we shared in the 10 1/2 years we had together is both soothing and hurt me. Although, as the days go by, the hurt is lessening a bit. I wish the same for you.

Hillary Dickman said...

Oh, I am so sad for you. Feeling your pain.

Nancy said...

You are in our prayers.

missfire said...

Oh, Susan, I am so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you . . .

beckus said...

Wishing you comfort and peace. My heart is with you.

Trinity said...

Susan,
That is such sad news. I'd bring you a cup of tea and give you a hug if I could. Wishing you comfort...
Trinity

mayamocha said...

I am so sorry. I had to deal with the sudden loss of a beloved pet a few years ago and know how devastating it can be. Sending you hugs.

tripletsmom said...

I am so very sorry for your loss!!! You are in my prayers.

Meg said...

I am so sorry for your awful loss, you are in my thoughts.

Julie said...

How heartbreaking, I'm so sorry for your loss.

Sister Pam said...

Susan,
This is only the second time I have read your blog after my sister forwarded me the link. My husband and I live in Kentucky and have a flock of 25 sheep, and my best friend grazes her commercial flock on our farm. This morning I decided to look at your blog, and my heart just broke when I read you had lost a dog just this morning. We have three working Great Pyrenees and over the past eight years have lost two others, one a Maremma,to a car. You are right-there are no words, just a horrible, horrible pain. They are such amazing, majestic animals, and I can only offer you my deepest sympathy. Meaningless words, I know, but as I looked through your photos of all the gorgeous lambs and kids, I am reminded of the cycle of life that we are super-exposed to on the farm. I know that the amount of sorrow you are feeling is equal to the amount of joy Bixcotti brought you.
Pam

kelly said...

Oh, dear Susan. I am so sorry for your terrible loss. You're in my thoughts today. Take care of yourself.

Sister Pam said...

Excuse the typo-it should be Biscotti.
Pam

quinn said...

Oh Susan, I am so very sorry. I'm crying at my desk right now.
I hope comforting Biscotti's partner will help to comfort you.

DrRona said...

so sorry...
words can not express

much love...beaming to you and your family and flock...xoxo

misplacedpom said...

I am so, so sorry.

Manise said...

I'm so, so sorry Susie for your loss! How heartbreaking. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Sending you comfort, hugs and peace.

Lauria @ Brackenbury Lane said...

How terrible. I'm so sorry. You'll be in all our thoughts and prayers!

PolarBearCreations said...

Susan,I am so sorry for your awful loss, you are in my thoughts.

Mulderknitter said...

Tears for you and your family.

Leigh said...

I read your blog every day and I didn't realize how attached I had become to you and your animals until I started crying. I know it's painful to lose a pet, especially one so close to us. And as I sit trying not to cry even more, I am so so sorry. I hope everything will be alright.

aelscha said...

Oh no! Oh, Susan, I am so sorry. Biscotti was so beautiful and so devoted to her charges. You and yours are in my thoughts today.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry sweetheart... my condolences and thoughts. :(

Pegi said...

Oh, Susan, I am so very sorry for your loss.

pd said...

I'm so sorry.

rebeccablood said...

Oh, Susan. It's so hard to lose an old friend. I can tell you from experience that you will be able to think of your sweet Biscotti with great fondness and no pain a year from now. But the road from here to there is so hard.

I'm thinking of you.

Kim said...

I am so very sorry.

Nicole said...

i am so sorry to hear that. she was beautiful

Anonymous said...

Oh, Susan, I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is like losing a family member. Your dogs were so great when we visited - so attentive with the sheep and goats! I am sure that Fettucini will be lost for awhile without Biscotti, but perhaps you can find comfort in each other. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Kathy (Trinity's mom)

Joanb said...

Susan - there really are no words except to say I am so, so sorry.
Joan B

Constance said...

I'm so sorry about that.

Elizabeth said...

So sad, I'm so sorry Susie! I know the whole family (people, dogs, sheep, and goats) will miss her.

Elena said...

I'm so sorry to hear that. She sounded like a wonderful dog from all your posts.

--Deb said...

Oh God, Oh God, Oh God ... that's exactly how I lost Katy, and there are no words ... I am SO sorry. About the only comfort is that she didn't have time to suffer, but ... it's not much. I know just how this feels, and I'm sending you huge hugs ....

S. said...

Oh, god, Susie. I am so so sorry. I had a dog die from chocolate poisoning, so I know the shock and grief. My thoughts are with you.

mydogpetey said...

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Heartbreaking.
Absolutely heartbreaking.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Sarah said...

Oh my god, Susan. I am so, so sorry to hear this. Please know that you're in my thoughts.

Carol said...

There are no good words at a time like this. Just know that you and your family are in all of our thoughts as you go through this tough time.

Carol P.

Michelle said...

Our hearts and thoughts are with you. I am so sorry for your loss.

Jennifer King said...

Oh Susan, I'm so sorry. My heart is broken for you.
Jen

Jane said...

I send a biiig hug from me and all of us. You can claim it in person when next we meet.

inkdarkmoon said...

I'm so sorry. Biscotti is very lucky to have had such a wonderful home with you, doing wonderful work, and to have been so loved.

|chee-uh| said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I'm more attached to the animals in my life than I am most people I know. My heart goes out to you.

J. said...

Beauty without vanity, strength without insolence, courage without ferocity, and all the virtues of man without his vices.

Woolly Stuff said...

I am so sorry.

Emily said...

I lost a cat this way and it was one of the worst days of my life. I am so sorry.

Katie said...

I am so very sorry.

RxQueenAsh said...

The words sounds so useless as I write them, but I am truely sorry for your loss.

Sner said...

Such a senseless loss. I am so sorry for your pain.

Alwen said...

I lost my beloved little dog Sky this way in the beautiful springtime. It was terrible how that beautiful day and the days afterward turned so black. She will have been gone for 9 years this spring and I still remember her with love and miss her.

((((hugs))))

Pumpkinmama said...

Susan, how awful. Your wonderful dogs were the highlight of our visit to Felix Neck for my son - he spoke of them often after that. My thoughts are with you.

Anonymous said...

Susan - I am so sorry for your great loss. Know that you and your loved ones - both two and four legged - are held in my heart and prayers. Biscotti is over the Rainbow Bridge waiting for you. She is in good company with our beloved Heidi and Duffy and many others and forever young!

Sandy in NJ
Pecsan114@optonline.net

Jenibug said...

Oh Susan, such sad terrible news. My heart is aching for you and your family, two and four legged. I am sending, prayers and thoughts your way.

Quality Chick said...

Susan - you welcomed us all to share in the joys of the farm and now we share the sorrow. You are right - there are no words. Just tears. Our thoughts are with you and all the farm.

ms. crafty said...

Such sad news. So so sorry for your loss.

Sara said...

Please accept my deepest sympathy on the loss of your precious Biscotti. Know you are in my thoughts.

beth02116 said...

So sorry to hear about the loss of your beautiful Biscotti. Take care of yourself. hugs.

msbusyfinger said...

oh dear, poor Biscotti. I am so sorry.

Kimberly said...

There are no words I can say to ease your pain. When we lost our last pet, I received a card with The Rainbow Bridge poem. www.rainbowsbridge.com/Poem.htm
I was not able to finish it for many months but now when I read it I can remember Michael with the pain in my heart but also with the joy he brought us. You and yours are in my prayers and I hope when you are able to read this poem it will bring you a small measure of comfort.

katygirl said...

Oh how heartbreaking. Nothing compares to the love and devotion of a dog, and unfortunately the same can be said of the pain of loss when one passes. I send you all my wishes for comfort for you and your family of humans and other animals.

Rebecca said...

My heart has broken for you and your loss. I am so very sorry.

Tracy at woollies.wordpress.com said...

Oh, Susan, I am so sorry. I've been there and I know how much it hurts. (((hugs))))

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry. My heart goes out to you. Heather

Patty said...

I am so sorry (((hugs)))

Yoku said...

Aw, crap. I am so sorry. We had the same experience a couple of years ago. (it's 12/20/06 on my blog)

We now have Chuy (a Mexican nickname for Jesus), the Christmas dog.

Biscotti was truly loved.

Danielle said...

Oh, Susan, I am so so sorry to hear this. My heart breaks for you.

DataGoddess said...

Oh, Susan, I am so sorry.

Anonymous said...

I am so so sorry for you and your family and Fettucini, too.

dinajill

Allisone said...

Susan, I am so sorry.

Margalioth said...

I'm so sorry. I don't know what I would do if that happened to my dog -- I would certainly not have the language for it either.
Deepest condolences to you, your human family and your animal family (especially Fettucini).

Heather said...

I am so, so sorry.

Ann (yet another) said...

I am so sorry. Nothing else can really be said. She was such a part of your farm endeavors and heart.

Samantha said...

All my love to you right now. It hurts so much. I know this feeling.

Dawn said...

Susie-

I am so sorry. I got to see Biscotti when I was in MV in July. My heart is breaking for you. If I could see you I would hug you, so consider this a cyber hug.

Bless you........you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Knitting Painter Woman said...

My condolences.

Stephannie said...

I am so, so sorry.

Fergus N. Jackson said...

I am so sorry. It's just rips your your heart apart when you can't hold on to one you love so much. Especially one who has loved you so unconditionally.
Please know that you and your love ones are in our thoughts and prayers.

Michelle said...

I am so sorry!!!

LiquidLace said...

Oh no!! I can't say anything well enough except, Oh, NO!!

Wish there was some way to ease the hurt. Hug everyone you can, and know that there's a lot of love for you from all of us.

{{{{{HUGS}}}}}

Hockey Mom said...

I am so sorry. You and your family are in our prayers.

miss ewe said...

I am devastated for you. It's terrible to lose a member of the family. Biscotti had such a beautiful doggy smile, and obviously had a wonderful life with you. I'm so sorry she's gone.

ikkinlala said...

I am so sorry.

Erin said...

So very sad. I'm sorry for your loss.

Guido from Boston said...

I am so sad to hear this. Please accept my condolences... You will be in my thoughts and prayers...

Cheryl in VA said...

There is no language, only emotion, sorrow, and prayers and wishes of comfort being sent your way.

Peace and Light to you on some of your darker days.

Champagne/StitchPoet said...

ohhh, your heart must be broken. mine is broken for you and i've not even met you (yet!). xov (kisshugstitch)

Malteseknitter said...

I am terribly sorry for your loss. My dog Pippo died a couple of months ago and I understand how painful it is. Hugs XOXOX

Donna said...

I'm sorry. There are no other words.....

Parisa said...

I'm so sorry. Time will help ...

AmIAKnitterYet said...

sorry. she will be a tough loss.

sprite said...

How horrible. Sending you our deepest sympathy.

Terry said...

I am so sorry. I know that is a devastating loss for you. Know that we are all thinking about you.

LauraJ said...

I am so sorry. There are no good times to lose a friend, a pet, a fellow-shepherd, but this was surely a particularly tough time. I hope everysheep's health issues have cleared up, and that you have the love and understanding of those nearby as well as us in cyberspace.

Vaedri said...

I'm so sorry. What an awful loss for all of you. Be sure to hug all the critters you can today, and I'll do the same.

Anonymous said...

Susan...Biscotti will always be watching over your flock. No matter what. She helped you realize your dream, and you provided her with an amazing chance to live out her's. I am so sorry.

Rebecca Gordon said...

Oh, Susan, I am so sorry. She was a very fine dog.

Anonymous said...

I'm crying reading this...

Cornelia said...

Gutwrenching news. I'm so sorry for your loss. You're in my thoughts.

HODGEPODGESPV said...

oscar is being treated for heart worms he got before i rescued him and i got him shortly after baby bear died. i share your tears! i am so glad it was fast, if she had to go. ((((((hugs)))))

Turtle said...

so very sorry for your family!

Zoe said...

Oh Susan,

I am so very sorry for this to have happened. Much love to you and everyone on the farm.

Zoey

Ellen said...

Oh dear Susan,

I am so very sorry.
Warm hugs to you and Patrick.
xoxoxo,
Ellen

Jean said...

My heart is breaking for you. I don't care what some people say, a dog is a family member, and losing one hurts like hell.

Patty said...

God bless.

sharon t said...

So very sorry to hear of the loss of a treasured dog. Biscotti was so lucky to have been a part of yuor family.

Jenna S said...

I am so very sorry to hear this devastating news!
It's true, there are no words when we loose a cherished member of our family.
Please know you and yours are in our thoughts, in our hearts and in our prayers.

Sometimes you just gotta cry!

Please do let us know if there is anything at all we can do! I'm sure I am not the only one who would jump in a car (train, bus, airplane) and help in any way I am able!

Anonymous said...

Susan, I am so, so sorry....
We are keeping you and your family in our thoughts and sending best wishes your way.
Kathleen in VT

Edwina said...

This is truly heartbreaking. Biscotti was a majestic dog; so, so, SO lucky to have been part of your family. Please know that we are thinking of you, Susan.
Sending you Big Hugs.

kiewies said...

I'm really sorry!

A Crafty Lawyer said...

I'm just heartbroken for you. I'm so sorry.

romelda McKee said...

My heart weeps.

Erin said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Quirkles said...

Oh, Susan. I just heard. I am devastated and can completely understand your sadness. I don't know how to ease your pain, but I am thinking of you and Patrick and Erin and of course Fettucini. This is horrible and my heart breaks for you. Let me know if there is anything I can do.
Jess

Anonymous said...

It's always so very sad to lose a four legged member of the family. My thoughts are with you.

Jenny said...

Oh god, Susan, that is terrible. I can't believe it. I'll miss Biscotti so much. Hugs and love to you, your family, your flock and Cini. I'm so sorry.

Di said...

Echos of everyone else, Susan....

namate said...

I am so so sorry. I wish I could give you more than this inadequate message of sorrow and support.

Cupcake said...

Susan my heart goes out to you, please take time for yourself while you are going through this most difficult time.

Gina said...

So sorry to hear about Biscotti-I lost my Sophie Willow 3 yrs ago and still am really not over it-

Cindy said...

Cant express how sorry I feel about the loss of your dog. It's easy to say remember the good times, but hard to do at times like this.Our dog is sometimes the best part of us, I heard somewhere "make me the good person my dog thinks I am".The lost ones are always in our hearts.